My Hubby and Step Son

So adorable <3>

Still pregnant

And these Braxton Hicks suck! I really thought I was going into labor last week.

I'm goldie locks

NOTHING IS COMFORTABLE! I was laying on the couch but I kept getting cramps, I laid on my mother's bed and again kept getting cramps and now I'm in my bed and it sucks too. I have been getting cramps and tightness with a lot of kicking every hour for the past 3 hours, and they only last for a minute. Does that sound like labor pains or Braxton Hicks? When I was younger I use to get really bad cramps every time aunt flow came. My cramps literally made me faint sometimes, and no pills helped. So I had to chart my menstrual cycle and start taking pain killers a day before it came, so I won't suffer. But these cramps feel like cramps but the beginning stage ( the warning ) and I feel like I'm going to throw up. So idk whats up,and water doesn't help. Will I go into labor on my birthday (tomorrow) or what. I can't even describe how I feel, I just feel crappy. I know I've been rushing their arrival, but I'm not ready yet, plus I hope they aren't to small. Zev should be around 5 pounds and Zola should almost be about 5 pounds. I can't even focus enough to type, and I'm so tired.

SZA- Childs Play

SZA LYRICS

                                                                      "Childs Play"
                                                           (feat. Chance The Rapper)

[Verse 1 - SZA:]
Ripping heads off all my Barbie dolls
Toss them to the side, give them convertibles
Click boom, I like the way your ride's up
Can't have it all, skip the wanted boy
Watching from the sidelines, wish that she had it
She wish that she had it
Hearing a bad guy, build in a fantasy
Fuck reality, do you want to know, know, me
Do you want to know?
Stuck in Nintendo, get the controller
Street Fighter sin search
I'll finish him
(Down goes Frazier!)
I'll finish him
Come Desdemona
Othello the tragedies
Shakespearean sorrows
When do I begin?
When do we begin?

[Verse 2 - Chance The Rapper:]
I got L's on my record
Weed on the vinyl
Keys open doors when them keys are albino
I'll knock on my door when my stars is aline-o
I've been fishing for a minute for a minnow
Only I know that a pawn is a trade
And a rookie for a castle like tuition for a final
Playin' hooky for a tassle, spend a minute on the minor
Winds on my window
Ash on my skin, when the record low temps for the wind blow
Only write rhythm to the tardiest of tempos
Only ride shotgun when the car is a limo
Y'ar see
My crowd surf in a cypher
Scuba in my shower, take an uber to my neighbors
Used to pay the piper, till peter picked it better
Now the first thing you should tell is where the hell is all the paper
But memories keep coming back
All the nights that we used to laugh
Wanna know how I used to was, how I used to was

[Outro x5 - SZA and Chance the Rapper:]
Memories keep playing back, all nights we used to love
Just wondering how we used to was, how we used to was

34 weeks tomorrow!

If I go into labor, the hospital won't stop it now. My doctor also said at the rate the twins are going with their weight will make it safe. But I had a lot of braxton hicks about 2 weeks ago but they stopped. I took a 3 hour walk with my son and mother today and I felt great. I have a feeling I might make it to the end of September, which is like about 3 weeks from now. My poor stomach, these stretch marks are going get worst.

33 weeks

33 weeks and stretch marks

Falling asleep while eating ?

I woke up at 10 am and went back to sleep around 11:30. I woke up around 1:30 and made some food, then now I'm eating some fruit and I think I'm falling asleep while eating. I'm always tired, and this all just started about a week ago.

Waiting

My pregnancy with my son Jacob was easy, but I had preeclampsia. The pregnancy was a high risk so they induced me. My doctor pretty much asked me what date do you want to come in to give birth and i picked the 8th and J was here the 9th, but when I came in I was already 3cm dilated so if I didn't come in that day J would of been born on the 9th either way. So his due date was planned but not planned.

With the twins I'm high risk again only cause I'm having multiples. I kinda still have high blood pressure but I take pills and now its normal, so it is controlled. But my doctor isn't really forcing an induction. I feel like these babies are gonna come when THEY want to come, which I think is in a few weeks.  My health is good  and the babies are healthy (just too small to be born) but I'm starting to feel the pains and aches of carrying twins. 

Arie

Creepy things doctors say

"ohh you have a great looking cervix"

" your uterus is perfect"

I know these are common comments when you get checked down there, but it's all in the tone. 

Zola's kicks and Zev's punches

They are SUPER strong and painful yet ticklish. I feel like my stomach can't get any bigger, I have so many stretch marks already. When I was at the doctors, my doctor was surprised how big I got in just two weeks. And she also was surprised how many new stretch marks I had. She mad a finny joke saying I guess you'll be wearing one pieces at the beach. I laughed cause I'm thinking the same thing, psh maybe I shouldn't, If I wanna wear a two piece, I can do it. I have 3 kids, and these are my motherhood stripes! lol ...These babies have a ton of energy already and I don't eat much sugar, so Its not a sugar rush. I really wonder when they sleep, or do they move in their sleep. I move a lot when I sleep so maybe they are gonna be like me, cause daddy sleeps like a rock and doesn't move much. My doctor said I should be feeling more signs of labor round 34 weeks, which is in 2 weeks. But she also thinks I could make it to October which is nuts! Give me a C Section September 8th and I'll be a happy camper :) 

Doctor appointment

My blood pressure was 96/88 which is the lowest I ever seen in YEARS! My doctor was shocked and happy cause for someone carrying twins, it's pretty great. My heart rate is average so nothing to worry about. I weight 153 now so I've gained 25 pounds so far in this pregnancy. My doctor said most women that are slim before pregnancy should gain about 30 to 40 pounds, so I'm almost there. She actually told me I can gain more weight ( she means she wants me to gain more weight lol ) I eat a lot but it's always been hard for me to gain weight fast. All the weight I'm gaining are the babies, so after I deliver I'll be back down to 127 or so. 
The mall at bay plaza (bronx, ny) finally opened today. Its nice I guess, but not much stores were open. Forever 21 wasn't open yet, and I love that store. I met a mother of twins at the mall., she had 2 three month old fraternal twins. They were so tiny and cuuuute, thats going to be me in a few months.
Today was a loooong day and now I can finally relax.

Ultrasound

Only Zev again, Zola is vertex (head down) and Zev's legs were in the way. This is a clearer picture of him (kinda lol ). Zev is breech and he is 4.1 pounds, while Zola is still head down and 3.9 pounds. Zev was head down just last week, and Zola use to be breech but flipped. They can change again, but I think a c-section is in my future.

32 weeks and stretch mark city

My son's 5th Birthday with my mom and nephew

Sounds from my belly ?

When the babies are moving, I'll hear a clicking (snapping) noise. I had it with my first son, but this time it's louder.

32 weeks tomorrow

I could have only a few weeks left, and maybe just maybe next month around this time, they could be here.  Anything after 35 weeks will be safe for the babies, and that's only 3weeks away. My 24th birthday in coming up (aug28), and these babies will be an awesome birthday gift. My son's 5th birthday was on the 9th and was super fun. My mom, my nephew and I look J to Chuck E Cheese, and omg, they were to many kids there. I'll post pictures soon.

IN PAIN!

I woke up this morning and my breast are in so much pain. The pain feels like I'm engorged but I haven't started feeding yet. They have gotten a lot bigger in the past few weeks, so I guess they are just preparing to feed twins.

I woke up this morning starving. I felt like I haven't ate in 2 days. And sadly I ate A LOT of stuff yesterday that I regret. I ate 3 Cinnabons, when I wasn't pregnant I can hardly eat half of one. So now I'm eating a huge bowl of Frosted Flacks with bananas, yummy in my tummy  

Home alone.

Isn't it so weird when your home alone and you hear noises. I'm not crazy ya'll its just like old furniture making noises and stuff, still kinda creeps me out.

I'm 31 weeks and one day today and I just feel crappy. I woke up around 12:15 ish and I'm already tired again. All I ate was two pieces of toast and a banana and strawberry smoothie and a glass of water. I'm actually full and but I'm always thirsty! 

By the way I had a ultrasound yesterday and their umbilical cords are functioning correctly! But they did say the babies are on the smaller end, but I think they are only talking about Zola. It's so weird cause some websites say Zola is right on track and Zev is big, but my doctor said the is weighing normal for a girl and Zev is weighing normal for a boy. I did not get a non stress test cause they move so much and its obvious to everyone. Sometimes my ultrasounds take so much longer cause they can't stop moving, which is a great thing. A moving baby is a healthy baby. But I have another ultrasound on the 13th and its the same thing again. So that should be a bit boring, but don't get me wrong I love seeing them. They look the same every week so not much difference but these ultrasounds always make me so sleepy.

I'm so scared of going into labor before 35 weeks. I got 4 more weeks till the paranoia goes away. A baby can survive at 31 weeks and possibly go home within a few weeks but then there are some cases where the baby has to stay months in the NICU. My Zola was 2.11 pounds at 30 weeks and my Zev was 3.9 pounds. So I'm guessing Zev is already 4 pounds or so and Zola is over 3 pounds. But i have no idea, at this rate they should be around 5 or 6 pounds at 35 weeks :)  

This pregnancy

Has destroyed my skin even more. I keep getting pimples and of course I don't leave them alone, and then they leave a mark. I had one on my chest, on near my lip and one on my foot. I also have freckles now, which is very odd. They are on my checks . I have a ton of beauty marks that popped up in the second trimester. I have 5 on my stomach, one on my chin, and a ton on my arms. The pimple near my lip was annoying so i scratched it in my sleep ( I know bad idea) but now if left a mark, and it stings. I feels like the after math feeling when you get burned while cooking or something. It looks like a burn but I don't remember getting burned on my face, unless it was a old burn I finally peeled off. IDK, this pregnancy is going to make me wear make-up. My lips are always dry, no matter how much chapstick i put on. I drink a lot of water cause I heard sometimes that can help (dehydration). I've never used concealer, but I guess I'm gonna try it, I usually only wear some lipstick and that is it. : /